About f*cking time

Doesn't matter at this point. Everyone hates me for who i am and i don't plan on changing how you feel. Think what you wanna think about me cause I've clearly "earned"whatever title you put me under. Slutty seductive bitch. Stupid ass bimbo. Dirty ugly whore. Sorry i couldn't be the perfect little Japanese girl all you guys fantasize about.

OK hold on

You say you have a bad personality, then say you don't want to change it. What?

I didn't say i didn't want to change it. I said in not going to change how you guys think of me. I've hated myself for years and don't wanna be the person i am or have been.

Well, alright then.

CCoRS wrote:

Doesn't matter at this point. Everyone hates me for who i am and i don't plan on changing how you feel.

And they have good reason to.

[4/7/2014 21:48:00] ♡ Tsundereste ♡: i already know you'll fuck up you and nancy's relationship
[4/7/2014 21:49:01] Futamaster CAV: Who knows.
[4/7/2014 21:49:05] Futamaster CAV: Maybe I will, maybe I won't.
[4/7/2014 21:49:11] ♡ Tsundereste ♡: you will
[4/7/2014 21:49:20] Futamaster CAV: If you say so.
[4/7/2014 21:49:24] ♡ Tsundereste ♡: don't act like you wont cause i think we all know you will charles
[4/7/2014 21:50:11] ♡ Tsundereste ♡: if you cant even hold up  friendship with me, how do you expect to hold a relationship with someone whos just the same as me
[4/7/2014 21:50:28] Futamaster CAV: [Monday, April 07, 2014 21:50] ♡ Tsundereste ♡:
<<< whos just the same as me >>>
Not even close.

[4/7/2014 21:50:35] ♡ Tsundereste ♡: bull shit
[4/7/2014 21:50:36] Futamaster CAV: There's a reason why I like her and not you.
[4/7/2014 21:50:42] ♡ Tsundereste ♡: ....
[4/7/2014 21:51:02] ♡ Tsundereste ♡: oh really whats SO MUCH FUCKING BETTER THAN HER THAN
[4/7/2014 21:51:05] ♡ Tsundereste ♡: TELL ME THAT CHARLES
[4/7/2014 21:51:12] Futamaster CAV: She doesn't lose her shit like this.

Ohhhh bringing up that conversation OMG I'M so scared somebody save me!

If only you knew what he did to me too.

[12/8/2013 3:59:13 PM] ☆ Ｃ Ｃ o Ｒ Ｓ ☆: Wow you really don't even understand how I feel and no I'm not being selfish.... I shouldn't have even told you. I didn't think my"friend" would judge me so harshly on something that meant a lot to me.
[12/8/2013 4:00:26 PM] Red: because your friend was hurt
[12/8/2013 4:00:33 PM] Red: that you only thought of yourself
[12/8/2013 4:00:35 PM] Red: so, bye
[12/8/2013 6:10:20 PM] ☆ Ｃ Ｃ o Ｒ Ｓ ☆: No body was hurt
[12/8/2013 6:12:11 PM] Red: ok so I meant nothing to you anyways Lol
[12/8/2013 6:12:16 PM] Red: glad to know
[12/8/2013 6:13:06 PM] ☆ Ｃ Ｃ o Ｒ Ｓ ☆: The only person that was hurt was me
[12/8/2013 6:13:30 PM] Red: and Im not hurt? ok
[12/8/2013 6:13:33 PM] Red: selfish again I see
[12/8/2013 6:13:39 PM] Red: thanks for letting me know tho
[12/8/2013 6:13:40 PM] Red: ~
[12/8/2013 6:14:03 PM] ☆ Ｃ Ｃ o Ｒ Ｓ ☆: I didn't say you weren't I thought you were talking about someone else
[12/8/2013 6:14:14 PM] ☆ Ｃ Ｃ o Ｒ Ｓ ☆: Sorry .__.
[12/8/2013 6:15:28 PM] Red: forget it cc
[12/8/2013 6:15:38 PM] Red: just move on with your life
[12/8/2013 6:15:47 PM] Red: I thought you were pure and nice
[12/8/2013 6:15:47 PM] ☆ Ｃ Ｃ o Ｒ Ｓ ☆: Why are you hurt?
[12/8/2013 6:15:50 PM] Red: not....this
[12/8/2013 6:16:16 PM] ☆ Ｃ Ｃ o Ｒ Ｓ ☆: I don't understand how this is hurting you!
[12/8/2013 6:16:37 PM] Red: well good luck with that
[12/8/2013 6:16:43 PM] Red: I kind of told you but hey
[12/8/2013 6:16:52 PM] Red: if you wanna think about yourself thats fine too
[12/8/2013 6:16:56 PM] ☆ Ｃ Ｃ o Ｒ Ｓ ☆: Do you not think I consider you my friend?
[12/8/2013 6:17:16 PM] ☆ Ｃ Ｃ o Ｒ Ｓ ☆: Are you kidding me =___=
[12/8/2013 6:18:46 PM] Red: uh
[12/8/2013 6:18:49 PM] Red: thats not the point
[12/8/2013 6:18:50 PM] Red: lol
[12/8/2013 6:18:54 PM] ☆ Ｃ Ｃ o Ｒ Ｓ ☆: All this started because I was telling you about something that happened to me and I don't see why you are mad. If I hurry your feelings im sorry I do consider you my friend but if you're going to be sour about something so little fine. I'm not being selfish your putting words in my mouth.
[12/8/2013 6:19:04 PM] ☆ Ｃ Ｃ o Ｒ Ｓ ☆: *hurt
[12/8/2013 6:19:12 PM] Red: lolz losing your virginity is small?
[12/8/2013 6:19:13 PM] Red: alright

It's funny how she said all I did was use her when the one time I'm hurt and actually caring for her and her well being she blocks me and tells nancy "he never cared for me and only uses me".

Sorry celeste but if you want to continue this arrogant behavior of pushing away people who actually give a shit about you, maybe you need to get real and shape up or get lost. Yeah I'm probably being a hypocrite considering my past, but I've learned from my errors and haven't had any CB problems lately because I haven't been forcing myself into other people's lives anymore, nor do I "demand people to care for me". I'm extremely pissed that I cared so much about you, like a little sister, and I'm like the "one" person who did, and what do you do? You throw me away for actually caring that much. If you want to bring a personal attack on me that's fine, should I be revealing what I posted about you? No, but if it's to prove that I cared, then yes. But if you want to push me away, then fine, get lost and go seek some help celeste, like I did.

[6/13/2014 5:27:08 PM] Dai: goddamnit
[6/13/2014 5:27:13 PM] Dai: all these pics of celeste
[6/13/2014 5:27:16 PM] Dai: need to be deleted
[6/13/2014 5:27:17 PM] Dai: fuck
[6/13/2014 5:28:34 PM] [Name Censored]: i deleted those pictures asap
[6/13/2014 5:29:42 PM] Dai: ik
[6/13/2014 5:29:45 PM] Dai: I forgot until today
[6/13/2014 5:31:45 PM] [Name Censored]: i am glad those shits aren't in my folder anymore >_>
[6/13/2014 5:32:01 PM] Dai: yeah
[6/13/2014 5:32:02 PM] Dai: they
[6/13/2014 5:32:04 PM] Dai: bring back
[6/13/2014 5:32:06 PM] Dai: bad memories
[6/13/2014 5:32:40 PM] [Name Censored]: you mean of her being a skank
[6/13/2014 5:33:09 PM] Dai: exactly
[6/13/2014 5:35:29 PM] [Name Censored]: whatever, just gonna leave it in the past
[6/13/2014 5:35:37 PM] [Name Censored]: thinking about how she changed just makes me mad anyways
[6/13/2014 5:35:58 PM] Dai: es ok
[6/13/2014 5:36:00 PM] Dai: es nut ur felt

You can bring on any personal attacks, because this isn't about me or anybody else here, it's about you. Please go seek some help celeste. I won't deny that i was a sexual deviant and may have used you at times, but I still hung in through your shit because I was willing enough to be that friend you seemed like you wanted. If I can change, you can too.

I am glad for you Soundstorm, you grew up into a good person and unlike the breeds of Sash/a/.

Can't say how happy I am for you. Makes my heart doki doki to see people change for the better.

Look Celeste, I have tried to cheer you up and make you happy.
I have given you everything I could offer, including bitching at CAV
To apologize to you. I just can't stand how we can't have a decent
Conversation anymore without you going into depression.
It honestly hurts me when you say "no one cares about me" or "you have better friends than I do."
I've said this a shit load of times before, I love you and I care about you. But enough is enough
I'm not even sure what to say half of the time you talk shit about yourself, and why can't you see
For yourself what a beautiful young lady you are. I mean I would love to look like you.

Sorry im so blind. Especially to people who care. I've had plenty of situations were trust fucks me over and i can't ever believe that anyone would really care about me. I honestly look back on some of the things I've been through with people and wonder why the fuck i was the way i was. I hate the person i was and i still hate the person i am today. Honestly i really want to apologize to people who I've hurt or pushed away for my ignorance. I know I'm very ignorant to people's affection and caring towards me but i don't understand why someone would like a fucked up person like me. Soundstorm i didn't not think you thought of me that way at all and I'm terribly sorry the way i treated you and pushed you away. I know it's too late but i wish i could take everything back that I've said to you or about you. Kray I'm sorry about the way i talked to cav the way i did. I have my reason for the way i acted towards him and i truly felt awful after the conversation happened. I was in a very depressed and heart broken stage that i took it out on him and i shouldn't have. Nancy I'm sorry for how much i push you away. I know you tell me everyday you love me for me and i never come to appreciate that from you. You're always there for me and you help me get through everything and i wish i didn't push away or not be as thankful as i should be to people like You.

I'm not trying to get anyone's pity i just wanted to come clean about some of the awful things I've done to important people that i never realized i had in my life to begin with. I don't know what would make me treat people the way i do because i know that i really do everything i can to be nice and caring to anyone. Bad situations have made me a not greatfull, selfish, and an ignorant person especially to people who actually care. Looking back at these Skype conversations is a real eye opener for myself and i hope you can at least know I'm so sorry for any and everything I've done. I've created a shitty reputation for myself and seeing who i was then made me realize the kind of person i really was without noticing it. People change for better or worse and i hope i can change for the better for myself. i know it won't exactly mean anything to you guys but i hope you can forgive me in anyways or at least understand I'm really trying to not be who i was and i should have been a better friend to all of you.

CCoRS wrote:

Sorry im so blind. Especially to people who care. I've had plenty of situations were trust fucks me over and i can't ever believe that anyone would really care about me. I honestly look back on some of the things I've been through with people and wonder why the fuck i was the way i was. I hate the person i was and i still hate the person i am today. Honestly i really want to apologize to people who I've hurt or pushed away for my ignorance. I know I'm very ignorant to people's affection and caring towards me but i don't understand why someone would like a fucked up person like me. Soundstorm i didn't not think you thought of me that way at all and I'm terribly sorry the way i treated you and pushed you away. I know it's too late but i wish i could take everything back that I've said to you or about you. Kray I'm sorry about the way i talked to cav the way i did. I have my reason for the way i acted towards him and i truly felt awful after the conversation happened. I was in a very depressed and heart broken stage that i took it out on him and i shouldn't have. Nancy I'm sorry for how much i push you away. I know you tell me everyday you love me for me and i never come to appreciate that from you. You're always there for me and you help me get through everything and i wish i didn't push away or not be as thankful as i should be to people like You.

I'm not trying to get anyone's pity i just wanted to come clean about some of the awful things I've done to important people that i never realized i had in my life to begin with. I don't know what would make me treat people the way i do because i know that i really do everything i can to be nice and caring to anyone. Bad situations have made me a not greatfull, selfish, and an ignorant person especially to people who actually care. Looking back at these Skype conversations is a real eye opener for myself and i hope you can at least know I'm so sorry for any and everything I've done. I've created a shitty reputation for myself and seeing who i was then made me realize the kind of person i really was without noticing it. People change for better or worse and i hope i can change for the better for myself. i know it won't exactly mean anything to you guys but i hope you can forgive me in anyways or at least understand I'm really trying to not be who i was and i should have been a better friend to all of you.

You need to just take it easy, go to google, get a generic anime avatar, and be silly like most of us are. Sure it's nice to show yourself off, but when you sure your body in threads, avatars, and just about everywhere, it leads us to believe that you want us to like ONLY YOUR LOOKS and not your personality. As silly as it sounds, a forum avatar can express alot about a person and their emotions. That aside, you need to unblock me and everyone you may have "messed up with" on skype and ingame (if you still play), and just let loose without being TOO LOOSE. Like, just be normal, stop grudging over the past, stop pushing people away, and just be celeste. Nobody is forcing you to express your inner childhood traumas or past history. If you want to, that's fine, but don't use it as an excuse to get people as friends. It's very easy to make friends, just be yourself. Unblock me on skype, we can talk about it there, I'd prefer we did anyway, I have alot to say but alot of it is too personal here.

Take care and may your real life prosper well ;w;/

Look, people, no need to foul up a farewell topic with accusations and angry posts.

Someone is leaving the community. That's the gist of the topic. Nothing more, nothing less.


I mean it's like a funeral. We aren't supposed to smacktalk the deceased. Just let them go gracefully.

If you must express how much you dislike this individual, please do it elsewhere.

Relict? wrote:

Look, people, no need to foul up a farewell topic with accusations and angry posts.

Someone is leaving the community. That's the gist of the topic. Nothing more, nothing less.


I mean it's like a funeral. We aren't supposed to smacktalk the deceased. Just let them go gracefully.

If you must express how much you dislike this individual, please do it elsewhere.

Not all deceased are blessed with such a blessing.

Silly Relict, people dont rise from the dead and hold a funeral every couple of months

as requested from ccors herself, thread will be locked up.
(and argh, forgotten to locked up, thanks relict)

..

we can still write.

nice lock m8

Must have slipped his mind. I'll do it.